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Lori: I’d like to ask about my pre-birth planning. What did I learn about myself when I asked about karma before I was born and what were my goals and aims for my current lifetime?
Hilarion: So, you have named your play, “Karma,” so a confusion shows up. You are speaking of karma with a small k?
Lori: Yes. Oh, that’s interesting.
Hilarion: Oh! Yes. Once you focus your creative energies on something it becomes very real. As real in fact as that which might be understood as your own personal karma. So, yes you have so many different goals and aims in this. But, most importantly was to come in and understand what it means to be human. This is, you might sense, sort of obvious with regards to other people but actually not. They will sort of blunder into that.
It was a conscious decision on the part of your soul to set up a series of lifetimes in which each one would give you a completely different taste or sense of what it is to be a human being. This would accumulate, it would pile up in your soul to the point that you would have a deeper awareness of this at a level that transcended mind and emotion; a direct awareness of this.
It appeared that the most important reason for doing this was for some return journey. A sense of movement back to source in which that which was somehow linked with the consciousness of many, many other beings. Far more than those on earth would be in a way significantly enhanced by this knowledge, by this experience. But, in the process of experiencing this for yourself you knew the risks, that you would be altered dramatically and you would have the opportunity if you were to truly know this, to lose yourself, for the soul itself to dissipate or disappear or to in various ways devolve.
This meant that in some lifetimes in which there were mistakes made in which so much negativity was piled up that you would be handicapped by this, that, that part of the soul would be ejected and the deeper energy available as a result would compensate for this where possible. In the ways in which this has in this lifetime, to some extent shaped, it has shown you where not to go or a way to avoid so that it would be vey unlikely that you would be involved at such a level in any of the sequence of lifetimes.
At the same time, it was difficult in the deeper understanding of karma in this larger sense to predict across many thousands of years because humankind would be co-evolving. Others with similar tasks will be contributing to their source, to the greater aspects of humanity, that which you have available to you because you have this sense of the opportunity to contribute this to source you would then naturally have the opportunity to receive this from those contributing to source before all others.
These would make it unpredictable as to outcomes, when and where and so on. It could not be known ahead of time how this at an evolutionary, vibrational level would pan out. It was seen that as modeling by observation of other civilizations, seeing naturally where this would go, lifetimes would eventually show up in which the opportunity, to not only have a better understanding of it, but to complete it. To consciously take on these experiences in a relatively rapid manner and this sense of contribution to the collective all fulfilled.
This is the first lifetime when all of these energetics come together with that as a significant opportunity. At the same time there is the inevitable energetic holdover where every lifetime has provided you with something wonderful, something unique to the human experience. How would you be affected by this?
There is an addiction side to this. It was one of the risks that you took in taking such a powerful, long journey. That, that aspect that felt so good, that was so fun, was so interesting, gave you so much learning, would be that which you would somehow, in one form or another repeat. In so doing, the potential to get stuck or to do that in a repeated manner in such a way that you would not be able to progress. That is pretty close to the everyday human definition of addiction.
Similarly, the opportunity to evolve so quickly that the fulfillment of this larger purpose would not take place. Therefore, what has begun to emerge in this life and to a smaller extent in recent and previous lives is the idea of the observation, understanding and the sort of intrinsic nature of karma itself. Seeing of this as if it was a being, if it was a consciousness, as if it was something that had a mind of its own.
You knew the danger in this before you came into this life and you were briefed on this by those who are seeing the opportunity to dissolve karma with love. But, at the same time you recognized that the awareness of this would be valuable on many levels. As a result the sense of this begins to change for all of humanity. In a sense, you have contributed, though primarily unconsciously at this stage, to the observation that it is possible to dissolve karma with love.
The reason for this is simply because of your intrinsic desire to have the overview. When you begin this process naturally each of the specifics begin to show up. Karma is cause-and-effect. So, there is that which is set into motion and you are going to run it out and understand it. From that point of view, yes you would have the usual sorts of karmic attributes that most people go through; money, love, understanding, consciousness, the Cosmo-ethic, the different things that show up in lifetime after lifetime as valuable and important.
But, unlike others in such a pursuit or such an understanding, when you come to the life in which you seem to have completed this, when you have truly understood for yourself in a very personal way; money for instance is a lot simpler than love, you would then have at a deeper level an understanding of this and a sense of satisfaction around this and at the same time a sense of dissatisfaction that this was not enough. That even though you did understand it, you would not have the awareness of this that you had originally sought. That is because it it that which fits into a much larger piece than anything that encompasses only the human experience, the earthly experience.
It would have to be that which would have to fit into something much, much larger. This is not directly about karma, because karma itself is simply cause-and-effect. But, the nature of karma as it affects those close to humans as well as non-humans. Thus, the guides, the helpers, the intruders, the extraterrestrials who have the greatest interest which are typically those who are fairly close in proximity or those close in this Galaxy and the awareness of these energies as it bleeds across the more recent aspects of time; that is the recent future and the recent past.
These energies as they all interact begin to form a larger picture which can in of itself generate some questions. Because of your old habit patterns, you would tend naturally to try to answer those questions by generating lifetimes and by working with that energy karmically and coming to it at the best way you could to understand it. This, though valuable and helpful, can at times present some of the addictive qualities.
As a result, it would seem that the issue that is now up, is to understand addiction to life within the karmic context. This is very difficult for those who are entrenched in anything that is addictive at the physical or emotional level but because you have found a way to go beyond this you are now confronting it at the level that humanity needs to understand it.
This is the overview of addiction. In this deeper understanding what comes forth is an awareness of choice. That you have the choice within you as to how to respond to that which you begin to understand, that what you partially understand and that which you fully understand. Those are as if three choices and that you are allowing yourself by the understanding of the dissolving of karma with love to forgive yourself for making the wrong choice at step one and step two. That is at the level by which you partially understand or fully understand, you have a completely different awareness of this and what stands in the way of it will typically be those energies relating to love and forgiveness and allowing that to dissolve to the point that the true nature of this emerges.
Ultimately, what will be available from this will be new realms of understanding that cannot be easily described on this side of it. It's as if the breakthrough energy or the shift in consciousness changes the very way in which you perceive. So, the best you can do with this is prepare, continue to learn and gently but persistently examine where you choose to repeat a pattern. Where you choose to do something that is easy. Where you choose to manifest an energy in a way that is based on your experience, or that which seems most appropriate.
Ultimately, of course you see where this goes. It takes you right to the precipice of free will versus destiny. It takes you right to the very nature of existence itself. It is through that in the way in which you experience it directly that the doorway opens to return you to source. The potential to return to source does now begin to pop up. In this lifetime and in your future lifetimes this seems to grow generally more and more powerful. The way in which you would do this is not predetermined in any way. It is that which you must come to decide upon for yourself.
This nature of understanding all of this isn't really intellectual or mental. It certainly has that as an important component. But, it is as if through something deeper, this energetic is transferred. After all, the real purpose of such an understanding would be to theorize, to be able to explain it, to work with it with other people and this is something that although you have explored this in the past you have seen clearly the limitations of this.
As a result, it is possible in this life that you may confront a few others who are struggling with this sort of issue. It may seem at any time that it has to do with a specific karmic issue but really once you have been down that path you recognize the solution of that issue. Be it either through the dissolving of the karma through love or the balancing of the karma by utilizing some specific act or connection or energetic release does not give you the full picture. It gives you the balancing, it gives you the energetic, it gives you the awareness. It could seem then as if you could let it go and if you do there is still this other component. This energy that says there is something powerful, important to be learned here. Something to be understood more deeply. This is where it is very useful to remember our words about it and not try to figure it out. But, to simply let that fall into you and let that sense of that which needs a little more resolution or understanding envelop you.
In a sense then, the other karmic issue, not as important but still quite important has been the issue of what could be termed, “acceptance of paradox.” This is where that which is uncomfortable, but clearly is that which has to do with truth and reality, can be a part of you. You do this quite well and there are others who could certainly learn from this. In fact, oftentimes there is a avoidance of paradox within many people. They simply want it to be black-and-white or understand the right thing to do. That's fine. But eventually, a series of paradoxes show up and how you contend with this shapes your own consciousness, your own spirit, your own soul.
The paradox of free will versus destiny is a wonderful one that you have confronted and looked at many times. At the same time, you are able to hold these and find a way in which you need not make a decision about it but recognize it as a paradox and find a way in which you can entertain and be happy with it. This is an example because if you seek out paradoxes, if you're able to sit with many at once you will find the ways in which this shifts your consciousness rather dramatically.
This then obviously leads to then all kinds of potential issues with regard to cause-and-effect. You can set something into motion, watch how it plays out and examine all of the different ways in which that could and could not have happened or be shifted or your relationship to it, etc. Many opportunities you could say, very rife with all kinds of paradoxes. But, as soon as you enter down that path you begin to examine this in the light of that which is mental or seen in consciousness as opposed to the sense of the paradox itself. It's as if you step into it, as if you are allowing yourself as in the example given, both free will and destiny at the same time even though they may seem in conflict, can be that at a deeper level be that which is truly a part of your being.
This illustrates for you the true nature of this that is accessed and worked with beyond that of the mind. This is the overview, not the usual way we would answer such a question. After all, many individuals are simply working out these issues. But, as soon as you are exposed to the alternate viewpoints of this, that of the records, that of how other people do it, that of the energetics of an entire civilization, not just earth civilizations, but other civilizations and how they have dealt with karma and of course the possibility of dissolving karma with love. You begin to recognize this from the larger perspective and more importantly you have the opportunity when viewing any of this to take it on in a completely different way yourself. That’s why we respond from the larger overview than from the soul's point of view you might say.
