What Was My Very First Lifetime?

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Hilarion: That is a difficult question. You would think that would be very simple because it is that which would seem to be tracked but the nature of this has to do with conglomeration, separation and so on. One can see oneness; a single soul that which is the initial spark of humanity existing in a similar function to, as you understand it today, the kingdom of the air. In this there was a oneness but at the same time an opportunity for separation. This was indeed your first incarnation. 

This is not to say that it was an incarnation at all in the truest sense because there is not by any means death in the similar sense. But, there was some individualization and during that time period which existed indeed millions of years ago was an awareness of consciousness that you are somehow here. You exist. You are alive. You can observe other consciousness's and yet those other consciousness were almost as much as you. 

In this way, the big question began, “Who am I? What is the nature of existence. The I am, existence question.” It is this deeper holding of the question itself that promotes the individualization and as a result of this you then went through a sequence that led you eventually to an incarnation in the series of dinosaurs. There was a preference for Triceratops; some of these with other creatures; even one incarnation as an early mammal, one of the early equine series in that time period. 

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But, as a result of this there was a powerful focusing on many aspects of violence and understanding the body, understanding things having to do with the very nature of being. There were of course intertwined with this several so-called, “vacation lifetimes,” where you incarnated as a mountainous region and understanding of this was important to you. You had a brief period working with this but as soon as you had any acquaintance with this you were so curious about the animal life that you quickly transferred to this. 

So, the attunement to this has a certain romanticism to you. The sense of the mountain itself, not so much what it looks like, as much as what it feels like. Then the awareness of coming back into various forms of animal life. 

Then, after a period of incarnating in several star systems, working with Pleiadian energy at various junctures, understanding of Sirian (Sirius), of working with several guides and helpers associated with the earth, you began a series of incarnations in human form in which you became more aware of what it was like. Certainly, there was a lot of struggle. In some of these incarnations there was an attunement to violence and death that was simply about survival. 

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But, along the way you began to glimpse at various times extraterrestrials who came to earth to help and you would learn and understand about worship. You would work through different aspects in your own consciousness but eventually you came to an appreciation of the intellect. That those in other tribes who were successful as a result of their intellect and their understanding and awareness of the simplest things in life through nature, fire, water, construction, doing things, making things different, the use of tools; all of this eventually gave to you a deeper appreciation.

Then, you begin a series where there was incarnation associated with the developing civilization in Lemuria. The island of Lemuria had within it a number of individuals who had come along a similar path.They were part of your soul family, those you were close to and yet at the same time there was an awareness that it was not necessary to incarnate in this fashion.

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So, it was easy for you to move in and out of a body as a way of understanding. After awhile with this, you became fascinated with the budding Atlantean civilization and this began the series of incarnations which eventually led you to where you are now. 

As all of these sorts of energies can be understood through your current filter it would likely be misinterpreted. Many times that which would be seen as a conglomerate, a soul that is more than any single individual would be interpreted by you as an individualization and that is not true at all. It didn't feel like it and it didn't seem like it. The very nature of moving in and out, that is of incarnating itself. Many aspects of this were not at all what they would seem today. 

It would appear that you would have something physical, something strong, something associated with reality. But, it isn't actually that the level between what is perhaps the physical and non-physical was some way blended. That is how you would look at it today. In point of fact, there is a oneness to all of it that is simply born out by science that the nature of all of it is empty space. The majority of that which you would call, “reality,” or “solid,” or “real,” is empty space. Most of that is illusion. It is that which is constructed as the energetic matrix and you relate to it as being hard or real and as a result of that, it becomes so for you. This is very difficult to break free of to the point that you are able to accept this in your reality as long as you are in a body. 

This influences profoundly so much of it and that is the underlying reason that drew you in the very first place in the kingdom of the air; to choose to incarnate and to have a body and to make things more real for yourself. It brought you into a place in which you could respect this and understand it and work with it and in this way better know yourself.

Now, that is why we rarely answer this question, why some would ask, “what was my first lifetime?” and all of that. It is a blending and a gradual maturing bit by bit more than it is a singularity. 

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You could ask, “What was the first lifetime where I had a name?” Certainly you would not have had a name as a mountain or in the kingdom of air or as a dinosaur; despite what some of the theories might say about this. But, in the way in which you named yourself in coming into a physical body you had an awareness of life though it was somewhat animal in nature. There was self-awareness and in this you named yourself, “Hua,” which would be pronounced today but spelled HUA. As this, you had opportunity in working with other people who recognized you and called you by this name. At that time there were others who did not have names and it was the primary distinction that you found which of course relates to individualization and an awareness of how those energies might move and change. 

There were times when you, even after this incarnation, had incarnations without a name. But, as you were able to individualize and recognize this, the choosing of a name became important as it is even today. 

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