Hilarion: Well, it is a very interesting area to explore because what it actually does is it teaches you about your ego. This is the difficult part for most people. You see that the entire process of delving into this brings up, “why?” If you can admit this and understand it and work with it, it can be a powerful doorway into clearing and understanding many aspects of your own ego. The aspects of that what you would call your personality, those things that would help you understand yourself, etc. This is why the temptation is so strong amongst those who give such information to tell you, you were Cleopatra in the last life or a previous life or well, you name it, go down the list of the famous people. Well, how many Cleopatra's can there be?
So, in the way for you to understand this, you have had association with some of the individuals in the past such as Wordsworth, to bring forth new ideas and shift things
for people. You have had other associations with several healers, learning from them and their work. But, especially a woman known as Dolores in the Middle Ages in England who influenced many aspects of utilizing herbs and various aspects of the earth, learning of its direct communication and many other things. You were Dolores' assistant working with this and there were times working in this way you were persecuted. It was dangerous to connect to others because you would be branded as a witch. But, you were able to survive most of this and watch friends, loved ones, suffer greatly at the hands of those who tortured and hurt those who they believed to be producing, "the work of the devil."
In Atlantis, an important lifetime that allowed you to learn a great deal about what was humanity's highest potential. During this time period using the name La Ra you found an aspect of silence that allowed you to understand things in ways that no one else could. The silence part was difficult to explain so your best shot at it was to invite others to be in silence, to understand it or work with it. You were largely unsuccessful with this because you realized that it could not be transferred, it had to be felt in a way in which it gave voice, it gave birth to the exact opposite to what the silence gave.
During this time you had a completely different relationship to music. You began to understand it or feel it in ways that you had not previously and although this did take you into some of the musical elite in that time period you recognized that this would be actually a sort of dumbing down of some of your real skills. It was not about the complexities of the form it was somehow about the transposition between silence and music and between the energies associated with both, many discoveries that were fundamental to your soul were launched.
You had two lifetimes of significance in China that allowed you to discover some aspects of family that you had been missing. These beliefs were powerfully forced on society, the interdependence on a family, the way in which they saw each other and so on was quite stifling and was that which you broke free of several times. But, also that which gave you a deeper sense of belonging to humanity, a sense that was necessary for your own soul’s development because there were times in which holdovers in particular from Atlantis allowed you to feel separate.
Another lifetime, in ancient Greece, one of the meetings you had was with a being who was fairly famous at the time, who is known today as, "Cassandra", a great priestess, prophet, someone to understand; but whose words were not accepted, not received by others. This was perplexing to you, because the truth itself was that which would seem to be so obvious as helpful.
Yet, in questioning this you launched yourself into a series of lifetimes in which you would feel, understand, that you would receive, but you would not be so interested in ferreting out the truth. This has given you a significant experience in this cycle and then can find a way to stimulate the feeling sense, the kinesthetic, for instance. This is one of the reasons why when you share the principal of what is true with somebody, they may perhaps reject it, understand it, but not live by it, shunt it aside or set it into a place where they do not understand it.
This is now which you have in your own makeup. That over the intervening years, centuries, you have built this energy in. This means that at the soul level you have another aspect of truth that you are now ready to drop in and it may not show up in this lifetime. This is something along the lines of how those who do not receive and understand the truth directly, that is from the words alone may receive it, know it, incorporate it. That "how," could easily lie in the emotional aspect, in the feeling sense. In the sense of the modality in which it is to be shared, a movement. It can be a combination of all of these things, that is the area to be explored in addition to the understanding of the truth itself. In other words, as you move to this next level, as the cycle now comes around again you incorporate everything from the previous understanding. The aspects of the feeling experience, the sound experience, sense of movement experience, etc.
Another sequence or tendency began to emerge that in each lifetime you would deliberately set up for yourself some balance between the separateness and the connectedness to humanity. As you would imagine frequent lifetimes off world, various aspects associated with various star systems: Sirius, Deneb, Aldebaran, other stars relating to this, others as yet unnamed, a couple in another galaxy and so on. In each of these such tremendous degree of progress in areas of understanding the universal principles. You worked with the pure energetics, understanding things from a completely different point of view and always the tendency ending in this life in that area, longing for Earth; wanting to be physical, to embrace, wanting to connect to something in a way that simply seemed impossible in that reality.
As a result, you were always told in those places that you could learn a great deal from the earthlings, primitive and foolish as they were. They did understand things in a way in which you knew it deeply, felt in what you would understand now in the physical body, the heart and those energies that are unique. Always drawing you back to lifetimes of the emotional impact, physical struggle, karmic interaction etc. etc.
But, always those experiences which had a more visceral powerful impact upon the soul and this was the final deciding factor for you in every case. That every lifetime you looked at in relationship to earth had a more profound and deep effect on the soul than any lifetime you lived off world regardless whether you felt connected, part of a family, separate or whatever.
The mere fact of incarnation on earth had its role to play. It is significant to note that you have also had a few incarnations, indeed some fairly recently in which life was cut short; a couple of miscarriages, a couple of abortions, a couple of deaths at a young age. Part of this has increased your understanding of a child, not as a parent would, but as a child would and what it is like to struggle to gain life to be in the womb, to alive yourself into existence with beautiful energy of simply being. These are expressive ways that cannot be understood from the adult perspective and yet can be felt from aspects of the child that you can be more in touch with than most people. One reason for this is that you understand in an intrinsic way the preciousness of life itself.
Now, of course this involves karma and the aspects of past lives. As they build in karma they do not come to any resolution on this easily but they do build up energy. What is to be done about this? How are people to relate to this? What is the aspect that can be touched by this? The potential solution that has been proposed to you in several intermissive periods, that is the time between lives, which is simply let the children decide. Bring that energy into existence so that the children can understand and this may be that which eventually does show up in your life. That which is going to be very helpful as others may be able to run with it in ways that you had never imagined.
But, in the meantime it is useful at times when you are in touch with an emotion associated with sadness or grief to also access from the child's way simultaneously, that grief, that sadness, through tears, through relaxation, through some way in which that energy flows and that powerful sense of a desire to come into existence, to be born, to be alive, to have that energy that is forceful, that says I am going to become physical.
This is important and often overlooked when people are examining and working with past lives not because there's a great deal of learning that takes place. Since, of course not getting to too much age in life you don't get to learn a lot, but in the sense of physicality itself and how it is precious and important role to play in simply showing you how important it is to be here.
Now of course you cannot be thorough about this without delving into so many and the intent of the question; engaging your consciousness beyond ego to help you in coming to the idea of entering into these yourself. Imagine what it is like to be in these civilizations, imagining what life was like then, enabling some of the feelings that came from times in the past to come into you in a sort of free-form, musing. But, still conscious awake meditation can be a useful way of extracting information, having a deeper sense of what was taken from those lives and so on.
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